I find myself asking this question a lot. The answer is ALWAYS the same. I would have tried not to be stressed out about my baby. Maybe if I didn’t stress out over her than she would be here in my arms right now. Losing her was the most heartbreaking part of my life, that damaged me more than being raped at 14 did. The only thing I want in this world is to be a mother, and having the chance to do that, then having it ripped away from me in an instant is the worst thing. I never met her, frankly I never even knew if she was a girl or not. But a mother’s instinct is normally right. I think she’s appeared in my dreams before, she’s the most beautiful baby I’ve ever seen, she has brown eyes like her daddy, and a cute little nose. She looked just like her daddy, that’s a great thing. I miss her everyday, I don’t think there’s a day that goes by that I don’t think about her. Momma loves you sweetheart, see you later. <3