You should be having bad dreams, screaming “MAMA!” Asking for your bink, starting to be potty trained, throwing food, ripping bows out of those brown locks. But instead I sit here and just cry. Wishing my little girl got the chance to live. Other plans were made for you Peyton, mommy needs you, but Hannah needs you more. I remember when I found out I was pregnant with you, I was 17, scared and honestly excited to have a little me running around. It’s crazy that was almost 3 years ago. When mommy has another baby, they’ll know about you. You may not be here, but I’m still your mom, and your still my daughter. Nothing could change that. I love you princess. Don’t drive Hannah too nuts love
Well miss Peyton, or shall I say miss toddler. You’d be 2 today, that’s Insane to think I would be chasing a toddler around! Happy birthday babygirl. It gets really hard sometimes, but you know what? I found a man that will talk to me about it when I get sad, not get mad at me like your father. Mommy doesn’t feel well at all today, and I think that has to do with today. Say happy birthday to David and also, give Hannah a big ol kiss on her cheek for me. I know she’ll take care of you, she’s always been so great with kids, be her little buddy okay princess! Mommy love you! Happy 2nd birthday Peyton.
This is a happy month, but also a very sad month. I turn 20 tomorrow, that’s a little scary. I’m not going to be a teenager anymore. Then valentines day, I get to spend it with the love of my life. But this month my daughter would have been 2. Getting into everything! No one really knows how much she means to me, I don’t like to talk about her, it makes me sad, I still have some dreams about you babygirl, you still look exactly like your father. Annoying. But you’re absolutely beautiful baby. I love you, happy almost birthday baby